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kingstoken) wrote2019-07-10 10:27 am
kingstoken) wrote2019-07-10 10:27 am
Entry tags:
Canon Pain, Fandom Unhappiness and Trying to Let Go
I want to talk for a moment about how canon can hurt you deeply, I will be discussing the most recent episode of The 100, so I'll put rest under the cut
Okay, last night The 100 killed off Marcus Kane in an extremely tragic manner, and I have been a mess ever since. Kane was one of my favourite characters and kabby was my OTP for this series. I knew, from reports that the actor had gotten a part on another series, that this was most likely Marcus' last season. What I did not expect was that his last appearance was going to happen in last night's episode, at the mid-point of the season, and I did not expect how they would chose to end his story. I won't go into details, but I will say I cried on and off for a long time last night and I have cried again this morning. My mother said I need to remember it is just a fictional character, but that doesn't help the pain.
I wanted to write about how hard to is let go of characters you love. I have had some success in enjoying canons where they have killed off beloved characters, the most recent example being GoT. For a year and a half before the final season I was able to prepare myself, because I knew that there would most likely be many deaths, and I although I was still hurt while watching some characters die, I think because I had distanced myself before hand I was able to mitigate the pain. And, since the finale I have been able to enjoy fix-it fics featuring Jorah, Dany and Jaime.
I think the difference with my more recent blow is that I didn't have time to prepare myself and to give myself some emotional distance from the show. Until very recently the fandom was still pretty positive that the actor would eventually return full time to the show, and even when it became obvious that that wasn't the case I think I still was hoping they would find a way, if not to give him a happy ending, to at least do the character justice. I guess I should have know better, because The 100 does not have the best track record with how they handle death. At least he got to say goodbye, but the suffering this will cause Abby is beyond me, and I don't think I want to watch anymore, because I have had enough of watching Abby suffer. I will not be continuing the series at this time for my own mental well being, and maybe someday in the future I will be able to enjoy kabby fic again, but just not now.
Anyways, this post is a bit of a mess, but I just wanted to try express some of my feelings. I think in the future I am going to have to try and mix in some happier canons, although this is hard because I do love sci-fi, and I do love angst, just not the type that ends in death.
Okay, last night The 100 killed off Marcus Kane in an extremely tragic manner, and I have been a mess ever since. Kane was one of my favourite characters and kabby was my OTP for this series. I knew, from reports that the actor had gotten a part on another series, that this was most likely Marcus' last season. What I did not expect was that his last appearance was going to happen in last night's episode, at the mid-point of the season, and I did not expect how they would chose to end his story. I won't go into details, but I will say I cried on and off for a long time last night and I have cried again this morning. My mother said I need to remember it is just a fictional character, but that doesn't help the pain.
I wanted to write about how hard to is let go of characters you love. I have had some success in enjoying canons where they have killed off beloved characters, the most recent example being GoT. For a year and a half before the final season I was able to prepare myself, because I knew that there would most likely be many deaths, and I although I was still hurt while watching some characters die, I think because I had distanced myself before hand I was able to mitigate the pain. And, since the finale I have been able to enjoy fix-it fics featuring Jorah, Dany and Jaime.
I think the difference with my more recent blow is that I didn't have time to prepare myself and to give myself some emotional distance from the show. Until very recently the fandom was still pretty positive that the actor would eventually return full time to the show, and even when it became obvious that that wasn't the case I think I still was hoping they would find a way, if not to give him a happy ending, to at least do the character justice. I guess I should have know better, because The 100 does not have the best track record with how they handle death. At least he got to say goodbye, but the suffering this will cause Abby is beyond me, and I don't think I want to watch anymore, because I have had enough of watching Abby suffer. I will not be continuing the series at this time for my own mental well being, and maybe someday in the future I will be able to enjoy kabby fic again, but just not now.
Anyways, this post is a bit of a mess, but I just wanted to try express some of my feelings. I think in the future I am going to have to try and mix in some happier canons, although this is hard because I do love sci-fi, and I do love angst, just not the type that ends in death.